Mine

March 28th, 2012.
My Boy

I’m not seein
Clear now
Oh it’s so hard to see!
rain fall soft
thick mist shift
bloom up
just for me

it smoke up my
eyes n clean my brains
Out
A soot mix with white
Gray blue eyes blink up
My
drought

And a boy stand in place
Where my heart used to be
Bring me kindness
a joke
smilin at me

this smoke
feel so real
my strung out nerves
can’t won’t
heel 

’s no reason but I’m shaken
To the bottom of my scraped
Shores
That well up my worth
But keep me screamin
for more

I’m a man I’m a girl
I’m everything in between.
I’m the boy in the rain
I’m someone else’s dream.

But
I shout
I shout
I shout
I shout
You’re the one
I’ve dreamed about

I am not yet written though
I am not being sung
I sit with a pen
Instead of a gun

Thank me when it’s over
I’ll give thanks when I’m done
The floured pain plumes
It blooms
No need for
Any sun.